For nearly twenty years, I traveled the world as a fashion photographer, living out of a suitcase for weeks at a time, shooting campaigns on beaches I never imagined I’d see, working barefoot in a bikini with clients who were like family.

I'd always dreamed of seeing the world, and photography gave me a life I never would have known otherwise. When I finally reached what I thought was the peak of my career, I remember thinking, okay... I did it, life is perfect, it’s finally the right time to start our family. 

But becoming a mom was not the simple next chapter I thought it would be. What followed were years of hoping, grieving, searching for answers, two devastating losses, and a surgery for endometriosis I hoped might finally give us a way forward. And somehow, it did. I got pregnant with twins. 
My miracle rainbow babies, the ones I had hoped for, grieved for, and fought for. 

BEFORE I BECAME
A MOM, PHOTOGRAPHY WAS MY WORLD. 

BEFORE I BECAME
A MOM, PHOTOGRAPHY WAS MY WORLD. 

But the exact week we were stepping into the life we had waited so long for, we were also learning my mother-in-law had an incurable cancer, and our family was about to enter one of the hardest seasons we have ever known.

That chapter brought life and death so close together that I could never see time the same way again. I'd spent years trying to bring my babies here, and when they finally arrived, I was learning in real time how little control we have over any of it.

But the exact week we were stepping into the life we'd waited
so long for, we were also learning my mother-in-law had an incurable cancer with little time left, and our family was
entering one of the hardest seasons we had ever known.

That chapter brought life and death so close together that I could never see time the same way again. I'd spent years trying to bring my babies here, and when they finally arrived, I was learning in real time how little control we have over any of it.